The fairytale romance between Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck continues to draw massive awe from fans the world over. But, did you know things almost reached a dead end for J.Lo when the couple broke up, years ago?

In a recent interview, Lopez spoke about how miserable she was when the two parted ways for the first time. The 53-year-old revealed, “I honestly felt like I was going to die. It sent me on a spiral for the next 18 years where I just couldn’t get it right. Couldn’t get it right,”. She further added, “But now, 20 years later, it does have a happy ending. It has the most would-never-happen-in-Hollywood ending. ‘That would never happen. We’re not going to write that because nobody would believe it’s ending.”

The split allegedly left her devastated to the extent that she even refrained from singing tracks from her album This Is Me… Then because it reminded her of Affleck.  

“Once we called off that wedding 20 years ago, it was the biggest heartbreak of my life,” averred the Billboard Icon Awardee, referring to their wedding in 2003, which eventually got stalled, only to have them part ways in January 2004. Fast forward to 2022, and life takes a complete turn yet again — Afflect and J.Lo are man and wife.  

The singer also spoke about her album, which was highly influenced by the turmoils in her relationship. They were also working on a film together at that time titled, Jersey Girl.  

Speaking of which, she said, “I remember the apartment, I remember the conversation. I was like, ‘I just don’t know what to name this album. I can’t nail it. The songs are not the thing, there’s no title track. And he was like, ‘Well, this is you, right now. Everything that you’re writing on this record that I’ve been seeing — this is you in this record. It really captured a moment in time when I fell in love with the love of my life.” 

Lopez further added that all the songs that she has penned for the album started it with ‘Dear Ben’. It was a special time in her life, and she tried to capture it in all ways possible. 

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